Self Sabotage Stops Here
Originally published on: March 29, 2018
I find space for what I treasure. I make time for what I want. I choose my priorities and Jesus, You're my number one. - Jonathan McReynolds: Make Room
At my former church while in college, I remember my pastor at the time called me out as a graphic designer in front of the whole church. While I smiled and nodded at everyone, I kept thinking to myself "I'm not a graphic designer, but hey y'all." I was creating graphics at the time for the church's social media accounts; however, I didn't consider myself a graphic designer. I kept thinking about how the term "graphic designer" didn't include the love and compassion for people that I've always had.
After graduating with a communication degree from the best college known to man, AGGIE PRIDE, I began working at a restaurant as a hostess. I get to escort guests to their seats and make them feel welcome. Even though I have this job, my unofficial marketing manager himself, my dad, makes sure that I don't sleep on what God put inside of me. He's that parent that's talking to anyone and everyone about how I can create business cards, logos, flyers, websites, videos, you name it for their business or brand. While I wanted to remain comfortable in my hosting position for a minute, my dad took it upon himself to offer my services to people. I appreciated the leads and being the "yes" girl that I am, of course I accepted the projects. Just because I don't have a passion for something, doesn't mean that I'm not called to do it.
Weeks go by and I've talked with my one client like once. I even received a mini-promotion on the job; meanwhile, I haven't updated that client with anything. In all honesty, I am working on accepting my own gifts. There is no perfect job out there, but God has a way of making everything perfect for you. This means that He will give you patience to endure in those unfulfilling positions or classes. He will give you grace and favor in areas that you least expect. He will even use the gifts that He put inside of you to lead you to projects that you are passionate about. It starts with a yes. If Jesus is my number one priority, then I must make time to accomplish what He set out for me to accomplish. I can no longer sabotage the blessings of God for the sake of my own comfort. Self sabotage stops here.
